Good morning :p

Woke up kinda late, guess that's two cups of coffee. Get my one checked today hope it's good. :)

I know i'm slow...update

      So everything is doing pretty good. I have to get my INR checked (not sure what it stands for but its how good the pill i'm taking is working) every other week. I go this week so i'll let you know. Last time it was kinda low (because I had a lot of dark green veggies) but i think we fixed it. I had a doctors appointment last week and everything was good. I even got a sticker. lol I felt like such a kid. But I say if you rnot in touch with your inner kid then you can't make it in this world. :P
   So this weekend mommy, nanny, Eli and I went to the museum in Raleigh. We had a great time! :) It was so fun. The little man was kinda abusive but he would alway say sowy and it was so cute. I turned away from all things school friday when I got home and haven't turned back till today. I started my online class today and I am was so ready for it. :)
    This week is full. I've got club meeting after club meeting and quizes and test and just school. lol :P
Alright well that's it so good night to all. :)

Though Mommy's eyes

After they wheeled Peyton away we were shown the waiting room. I was there with my mom, preacher and his wife. My oldest daughter Brittinee and her husband did not make it back in time to see Peyton before she went in.  That was extremely hard on Britt. We were to be told every hour what was happening to Peyton. She had a number so I could see where she was (Pre-op, Surgery, or Recovery). They took her to Pre-op around 930 and they gave her more meds to go to sleep and put in a catherea and breathing tubes. Around 1000 they told me they were taking her into the operation room. At 11 they came and told be they had made their first incision. So as I set there in a waiting room my child was being cut into. They were going to be putting her on a heart & lung machine doing things to her that I couldn't control. I was scared but being surrounded by people that I had to be strong for.  I could not break down. I prayed a lot to myself. God was with me as I know he was with Peyton. we went to the cafeteria to eat. Every bite was a struggle. knowing my daughter was on the operating table. I knew that I had to seem strong so the focus would be on Peyton and not me. We went back to the waiting room for a little and them up to the 12th floor to see the garden. I hated to be out of the waiting room that was my connection to Pey. I would position myself so I could see the clock. As soon as an hour had passed I would be looking for news. If it didn't come I would go to the reception desk.  The reports were all is well they are still working on her. Working on her? She's not a car! She's my daughter! I wanted to yell but I kept myself calm on the outside. The surgeon came out and told me everything went great that he couldn't have asked for a better surgery.  After he left I broke I cried. All me fears came rushing to my head and they had not happened. Neil said a prayer after everyone hugged each other. Then Neil and Elaine left. James and Britt left to check on Eli. Mom and I waited to er could go see her. We called everyone and told them how well it went. Then we waited another hour to see her.  When we finally did she was still asleep and had the breathing tubes in as well as other tubes and IV's. My heart squeezed seeing her this way. It took her longer to wake up this time. I hated to see her like this and know there was nothing I could do to ease her. They took her tubes out after a while. She was still a little disoreintated. She was not fully my Peyton.
When she was fully awake she still had quite a ways to go. I would have done anything to take this away from her. I would have taken her place if I could. I NEVER WANT TO SEE HER LIKE THIS AGAIN.

I'm back to blogging :)

       Well lets start with sorry i haven't blogged mom wasn't able to get the internet on my phone and I was't up to using the laptop. But I'm back. :D So I got home Tuesday. I was still a little sluggish yesterday. I didn't sleep but I wasn't up to moving around. This morning I had to get my InR, don't ask what it stands for cause I don't know but it's used to make sure my blood is as thin as it needs to be. Mummy and I had to leave the house bout 8 and we did some other errands then came home. I took my first nap since I've been home and it was great. lol My younger cousins came over tonight. James is helping pawpaw tomorrow and Jazzy is gonna help me tomorrow since mommy goes back to work. :)
      Ok so enough about being home lets talk about the hospital. :) OK so we left the Wednesday right before my surgery. My brother in law and nephew went with us. I was in the back seat with Eli and James sat in the front with mummy. We dropped Eli off at James' Great Grandmother's place, she is such a nice women. We went to the office and they weighed me and took my blood pressure and walked us though how the next day, surgery day, would go. It was pretty much close to how my last surgery. I talked to a lot of people and they went over a lot, still using the big doctor words most of them going over my head. Afterwards we went to the hotel, kinda got lost I mean did some sight seeing. We checked on Eli and then we went and got some food. We relaxed in the hotel room and ate. Then James went back home to wait for Sissy to get off work. Mommy and I watched some tv till nanny got there. We went for a nice swim, since I can't swim for awhile. (Alright here's a question- If you put your bathing suit on when going to a pool, that means you intend on swimming, right? I don't think my Mewmaw understands that.) We went back to the room and waited for James and Sissy to come. Then we all relaxed and then went to sleep.
     The next morning we got our stuff together and signed out of the hotel. Mommy and I got in Nanny's jeep. James and Sissy got in mommy's car and we went our ways. James and Sissy went to check on Eli. Mommy and Nanny and I head for the hospital. We get there and  they give me one of those lovely hospital gowns and I enough I got a snazzy hair net. :) They put the normal bracelet on me and a red on that says ALLERGY and a yellow one that says FALL RISK, I think i need a permanent fall risk one lol. They give me my first IV in my left hand. Some of the people I meet the day before come in and see us. My Pastor, Neil and his wife, Elaine came to see us. We prayed before they gave me the loopy meds and boy did they work fast. I was sitting up on the bed since we were all talking and stuff. The guy came in and cleaned the IV and put the syringe in the IV and BOOM!!! I was loopy my head got light and the next thing I knew I was waking up in the ICU room with mommy. (They said I'd probably be in the ICU room for 1 to 2 days) I fell back a sleep because I was still loopy.

Well that my story I'm gonna have mommy blog tomorrow about what happened during the surgery then I'll till you more. :P

We're in Charlotte

Mommy, James, Eli and I made it to Charlotte. Eli is spending some time with his Great Grandma today. Mommy, James and I are eating breakfast to waste some time before the preop.

Last full day in my house for a while

     Well I pack today. ( Surprisingly I need more then you'd think like shirts to wear when I leave, books, paper and pencil to draw, etc.) Mostly it's stuff to do in the hospital room after the surgery. Mommy and Pawpaw got Skype so we can see each other when I'm in the hospital room. So if you'd like to Skype me as well feel free too. My Skype name is elizabeth.roze3. I have Skype on my phone so I'll get a notice if someone messages me. I'm showing mom how to do the blog via my phone today when she gets off work and I'll show her how to check Skype as well.
      Mommy will be updating during the surgery (Since I'll be asleep and probably a little...okay a lot...drugged and all though some of you got some fun text when I got my wisdom teeth out) I'll try and post as soon as I can. I may even get a picture with the surgeon tomorrow. Who knows.
     Once I'm back home and back to a semi-normal life (so probably about 2 maybe 3 weeks after I get back.) I am still going to keep up the blog. I'll keep you updated on all things surgery but I'll also touch on some other things like school or family or relationships or love or whatever. I hope yall will post some questions. :) And then some day when I'm a famous journalist yall all be able to say "I read her stuff before it was cool." lol :)
     Okay well that's it for now tell next time :p

Update

               So the preop was moved to Wednesday. And surgery is still Thursday. I'll post Wednesday night and Thursday before  I go in. I'm giving my blog info to mommy so she can post updated during the surgery and while I'm still asleep. I'll try and get back to posting as soon as possible. :)

Surgeon meeting

Well there's two types of valves I can get. A tissue valve which will last 10-15 yr, the doctor has seem them last longer but feels normally it's 10-15, which I'll have to then get it replaced again. ( Replacing it once is one thing but having to replace it more than that is dangerous bc of infections and such) Then there's a mechanical valve which would last my life. I'd have to take cumanah (I don't know how to spell it), its a blood thinner, a very 'special' blood thinner, too much could hurt me, too little could hurt me, I'd have to take it same time every day. And if I was to get pregnant I'd have to basically live in the hospital till the baby was born bc I'd have to switch to a different blood thinner, an IV blood thinner, and that's still not safe for a fetus.  (I'll still be on my blood pressure meds ). The surgeon said not to decide anything in the office. So we've had some time to talk about it and we're leaning toward the mechanical one.
    We go in on Monday for a preop.  Do some blood work and get the layout of the place and what will actually happen. Then it's scheduled for the 24th. I'll be there for a week and then I'll be back home. :)